The final storm

The first thought of this project was unheard of.

There was nothing there to build the house upon.

This beautiful building no one thought,

would be able to ever surpass the many storms.

The walls started coming up one by one.

Still no one thought it would last.

Then the windows, doors and lights went up,

it finally started looking like it might work.

The beautiful yellow paint covered the outside,

the grass was a beautiful green,

and the flowers were all beautiful bright colors.

It finally looked like a house.

As the storms started coming no one still believed,

it was going to be able to stand forever.

Everyone sat and watched as the storms came,

and pieces were lost.

But as the pieces were lost,

new ones arived and it became stronger,

and stronger, and stronger,

until no storm that came damaged it.

Then one day a storm came out of no where.

This storm unlike anyother.

Large, strong, and dangerous.

The final test was really here.

The wind tore the windows and doors from the walls,

The walls were taken from the foundation it was built upon.

The rain destroyed the beautiful grass,

and the flowers were ripped from the ground.

Finally what everyone wanted to happen, happened.

It was destroyed, ruined, and demolished forever.

The beautiful master piece that took years to build

was now scattered across different lands.

For now the lot is empty and all is lost,maybe one day it will return,

but for now it is done,

nothing is left but the memories of the past.

And it all happened because that one storm that came out of now where.

-Kenzie Hower 10-27-09

This is a poem i wrote one night. Me and my friends were having alot of problems and I used this as a different look at it. Im really happy with how it turned out. =D Hope you enjoy it also.

Decisions

So lately powerlifting hasn't been going so well for me. The last few weeks I have came home in tears because I was in such frustration with myself. Being sick for so long messed me up and I became really weak and it was really hard for me to realize. Working out just wasn't going how it was supposed to be.
I was supposed to lift in a competion this november and many people were expecting alot out of me. They were putting alot of pressure on me and it was really stressing me out. Everyone was wanting me to squat my 500 pounds and it just wasn't going to happen. My body was still trying to recover from being sick for so long and it was just no good.
At practice this last week it was really bothering me and I came to a decision that I didn't want to lift at this meet. Me and my coach had kind of talked about me not doing it but I really did want to do it. When he came over to help me get ready for my next set I asked him if I had to lift. He told me that I didn't have to and that it would probably be the best thing for be at that moment in time. It helped alot that he was so supportive of me, and I know he always will be in these situations. With me not being able to train like I usually do it was hard for me to think about even lifting at a meet and doing what people wanted me to do.
Over all Im happy with the decision I made. Even though there are still going to be people who are upset with me this is the best thing for be to do for myself. Hopefully everyone will actually realize what is going on with my body and understand. =/

it been a while...

Life has been so busy these past few weeks. But it has been a good busy so it is ok. =D
School has been moving really, really fast now that I have been able to go, and I am actually starting to enjoy it alot. Im hoping it stays like this to. Then my best friend told me that she is coming back to school next semester so im really excited about that! It will be nice to have her there again.
Then i got a awesome new job working at A&R case management. I get to work with kids with disabilities and im really excited. I hope im good at it. I have had to go to CPR training so far and i learned alot. Its a really scary situation, and i don't know how well i would do under pressure. Im sure i would do fine with all the adrinaline and stuff, but as of rite now it just freaks me out. I officially start tomorrow though and im really nervous but excited. I think im more nervous to meet my kid and get to know him. Hopefully i can help him with everything that he needs to be helped with and be a awesome worker. =D
Powerlifting has been going ok. With me being really sick the last month it really hurt me lifting wise. Im defiantly not as strong as i used to be and it is really frustrating cause i had some big goals for our next meet in november. But i guess i will just have to wait tell the meet after that to hit the things i want to hit. I guess im just having a really hard time realizing that I was sick for a long time and this is going to happen to me. These past few weeks i have been doing really heavy stuff and it is just really hard. It was stuff i was doing easily for sets of 5 and i can barely do it for 3. Im just ready to get back into a good training schedule and get back to where i was when i went to worlds. All i got to say is being sick sucks and i hate it. It really ruins everything.

Powerlifting

So i really didnt know what I wanted to talk about in this blog, but Kyrsten just gave me a great idea, so here we go! =D
Alright so I haven't exactly explained to you guys what powerlifting is yet and its one of the main focuses of my blog. Powerliftin is a three even sport. Squat, Bench and deadlift. Squat is well a squat haha. But in this squat you have to go past parrelel(?), so for a better image your hips are below your knees. Squat is my best lift out of all three. Its the one I hold every record possible in. =D Bench is the simple bench everyone knows. Then dead lift is just when you pick the bar off the ground.
In each lift we were special equipment. For squats we were a squat suit, wrist wraps, knee wraps, and specialized squat shoes. For bench a bench shirt, a singlet and wrist wraps. Then for deadlift we can either were are squat suits backwords or a deadlift suit, then also very flat bottomed shoes, I wear converse. Now you ask what the suits are good for? Just imagine a spring. The suits are like a spring. They are very tight and when we go down they help push us back up. They are very nice and even though they are very painful they help alot. Oh I almost forgot the most important part of equipment, the belt! haha We were belts on everylift to keep our back safe. =D
Now how to you get to compete in a world competition? There are different levels in powerlifting just as in every other sport. First you compete in a qualifing meet. This is were you go and try and qualify for a national meet. All you must do is make a certian total and you get on the team. Its pretty simple. Then nationals is were it gets fun. Nationals meets are huge and there are tons of kids. This is were you go to try and get on the worlds team. The way you do this is by having the best total out of you weight class, so pretty much you have to win. And the way the total works is you add up your best lifts of all three lifts. If you do end up winning you get the spot on the team then it is your choice on whether you want to go or not.
Powerlifting isn't the funnest sport to watch but it is really exilirating. I love the rush i get when I am competing in compititions. It is my favortite feeling. The crowd cheering for you as you fight you get the weight up. Not only is your team cheering for you but you also have everyone else. In powerliftin we all cheer for each other and help each other out. =D
Hopefully this helps you out a little bit on what powerlifting is about. =D

random =D

Im kind of tired of writing about how frustrating my life is so im going to try and make this one happy. =D
So im pretty much stoked for these next couple weeks! hopefully they will go alot better than this week has gone. I get to go support my high school marching band at like three competitions. I love these kids and im so excited for them this year! They went to reno last weekend and took first in their division and 3rd overall, which is amazing cause this competition is really hard! They have been working so hard they deserve it. I do miss marching band though and when I go and watch their practices to help them I want to be out on the field marching with them. Is that weird? haha. I guess I can say I really miss highschool, well more the activities I did in high school. I hated the enviroment.
Im pretty stoked to go to Haunted World next week too. Me and my friends haven't been since our sophmore year. We tell each other every year that we are going to go but it just never happens. Now we are actually going and im super excited! Hopefully it goes well. Im the biggest fraidy cat though.=P One year we went and they had a snake pit and I started crying I was so afraid to go in there. It was no good. Everyone just laughed at me.
School is finally going good to. Its still kind of stressful, but its getting better. Im finally getting caught up on all my homework which is really nice. I only have to do 3 make up labs and I will be caught up. A huge stress reliever lifted off my back. Then my friend just told me she was going to come back to school next semester. I haven't really enjoyed this semester cause im not the best with making new friends. I pretty much just go to school then go straight home. So im really happy she is coming back. Plus my drives will be alot better having her there to talk to. =D

The past week.

This past week has officially been the worst so far. I finally was starting to feel better and I actually wanted to go to school. On Monday I wasn't feeling so well so I didn't go to class. Then Tuesday I only had spanish so I went and learned nothing. That class is frustrating some times cause it is so simple. Then that night me and my best friends went to Columbia to go watch the marching bands practice. At the very end we were walking out to my car and they just started yelling at me, I literally felt like I was getting attacked. Apparently I haven't been doing anything rite these past two months and they had alot of things to say to me, but I had alot to say to them to. It was the worst fight we had ever gotten in. I live with one of them and I didn't even want to stay in the same room as her so I left and went to my other friends house for the night, but boy did them put up a fight. They stayed in my car and when I got back in yelled at me some more. It was one of the most frustrating things ever. =/
That night I got only 3 hours of sleep cause I was so upset and was just tossing and turning so i didn't make it to history. As the day went on I started feeling worse and worse. I had a feeling something was up, so I just stayed in bed.
Thursday I was really ready to go back to school so I set my alarm so could get up in the morning, but i slept through it and woke up with there only being 30 minutes to get to class. There was no way I was going to make it. I live in nampa so it just takes me 30 minutes to get to boise, then by the time i find a parking spot and get across campus its another 20 minutes. I was so frustrated. I had a lab that day so I just planned on going to that since I missed class. I got ready and headed to school. When I got to the lab they were gone. It was a field trip that day and I guess I was a couple minutes late and they had left. I was really frustrated now, I just turned rite back around and went home. Then during spanish I checked what I had gotten on my test and I didn't do so well cause I had been gone for so long. I sat and talked with my teacher and he told me that he would help me get my stuff done that I had missed. This day just wasn't getting any better.
Friday my alarm didn't even go off. I was officially sick of this. I had a test to take so I had to go over to the campus either way so I got up and got ready and headed to school. I went and took my test and bombed it. I just didn't care anymore, I knew I wasn't going to do good on it just cause I had been gone so long.
This week just sucked. Im getting sick again, and I feel like im never going to get caught back up with school. Hopefully next week will be alot better, cause I dont' know if I could take another week like this again.

Life at its low points

Rite now I feel like I am at one of my lowest points that I can get in life, and its frustrating to me. I think the major part of this is being sick. I don't feel like im getting any better or getting worse anymore, im at a stand still and it sucks. Im still always tired, and ever time I even attempt to eat something I feel like im going to be sick. Yes, my fevers are gone and I dont' sleep as much but this almost sucks just as bad.
School is getting really hard for me to keep up with. I try my best to get to class, but some mornings I just wake up and feel cruddy so I just go back to bed. I called and talked to the finiancel aid office today to talk to them about me with drawling and if i could keep my finaincel aid and they said I would have to pay it back. So there is no way that I can even think about with drawling rite now. I just don't know what to do anymore with school. I guess Im just going to have to try my best and get what I can done and hope that it will be enough to at least get me a C. I was hoping to get all A's this semester but it doesn't look like that is going to happen with everything that is going on rite now.
Then I have no idea what I want to be anymore. I want to be a teacher, but my real passion is being a doctor and helping kids. I would LOVE to be a pediatricion or something in the dental field. I just hope I can figure it out soon.
I know everything will work out in the big picture but rite now I just don't feel like it is going to. I just want to feel better and get back to my usual schedule. I hate not being able to go and workout like I should be doing. I hate not being able to go to school and get my education. It would be one thing if I was back in highschool but im in college now, and I have to pay for this education. I want to go back to work and see all my friends from there. I want to make money so I can pay for my bills that are coming up next week. I need money so I can go and get a new cell phone and provider and get a new car so I don't have to worry about mine breaking down on the way to school.
Being a adult is complicated and Im not sure how much I am enjoying it rite now. Hopefully it will get better.