Decisions

So lately powerlifting hasn't been going so well for me. The last few weeks I have came home in tears because I was in such frustration with myself. Being sick for so long messed me up and I became really weak and it was really hard for me to realize. Working out just wasn't going how it was supposed to be.
I was supposed to lift in a competion this november and many people were expecting alot out of me. They were putting alot of pressure on me and it was really stressing me out. Everyone was wanting me to squat my 500 pounds and it just wasn't going to happen. My body was still trying to recover from being sick for so long and it was just no good.
At practice this last week it was really bothering me and I came to a decision that I didn't want to lift at this meet. Me and my coach had kind of talked about me not doing it but I really did want to do it. When he came over to help me get ready for my next set I asked him if I had to lift. He told me that I didn't have to and that it would probably be the best thing for be at that moment in time. It helped alot that he was so supportive of me, and I know he always will be in these situations. With me not being able to train like I usually do it was hard for me to think about even lifting at a meet and doing what people wanted me to do.
Over all Im happy with the decision I made. Even though there are still going to be people who are upset with me this is the best thing for be to do for myself. Hopefully everyone will actually realize what is going on with my body and understand. =/